God nothing even feels real anymore. I pain myself every day knowing I will never be able to experience the emotions of love from another person. My own parents and family hated me and find me unbearable. How can I expect any girl to love me when my own mother hates me. I dont even know what I want. A girl that loves me would feel like a lie. I just want to be okay I want my pain gone. I dont want to feel worthless but I am and I know that. It sucks knowing that no one will ever desire you.
God nothing even feels real anymore. I pain myself every day knowing I will never be able to experience the emotions of love from another person. My own parents and family hated me and find me unbearable. How can I expect any girl to love me when my own mother hates me. I dont even know what I want. A girl that loves me would feel like a lie. I just want to be okay I want my pain gone. I dont want to feel worthless but I am and I know that. It sucks knowing that no one will ever desire you.